Bring It!

Bring It!

Four weeks ago, I was still in my little flat on stilts, had just found this townhome I am living in now, my first husband had just passed away, had the bilateral sacroiliac injections, and the construction workers began to strip the siding off the balcony, requiring me to dismantle my beloved morning glories and balcony garden.

On a Thursday night that fateful week in October, we had tornado weather here in Oklahoma. When the sirens went off, at first I thought about taking shelter. But my son Adam was quite ill and said he wasn’t moving, and my yogi son was visiting that night, had helped pack some of my mountains of books for me.

I also had four cats with me and only one cat carrier, and could not fathom leaving them.

Soooo, instead of seeking shelter from the storm, I went out on the balcony and faced it head on.

Lo and behold, a tornado was headed straight towards us. I looked that tornado in the face (had just manifested all the money I needed to move in and also to pay my water bill), filled my heart with pure Christ light, and fearlessly shouted, “Bring it!” And it swerved east right at Highway 9, about 1/2 mile south of me. Straight shot.

The unfolding of many last minute miracles along with daily challenges and so much hard work, but all wrapped up in the long arms of Love despite appearances of said challenges, has been a journey of forgiveness and leaps forward in my own growth has occurred!

My wings are here at last, and I know I can sustain this magic, we all can.

It’s now over a year since I was in pain management, and despite the enormous physical challenge of moving out of what I now see was a sort of punishment apartment, (even though I did turn it into a sanctuary, and my balcony garden was beautiful), I have managed to pace myself most days, for when I don’t, this body temple certainly lets me know pretty quickly!

My message for this Tuesday full of Grace, is to know that even if there is only a tiny part of you still healthy and strong, you can heal yourself. There are many paths and many methods, but please don’t put all your faith in any one person (a doctor, for example), or healing method. If someone gives you a negative prognosis or prediction, don’t believe it. Look inside for the Truth.

For all the healing in all the world is right here and right now, in this breath and this heartbeat. When we relax into ourselves, let go of the trauma of the past and stop worrying about the future, we walk in Grace.

Like Jesus said, “My Peace I giveth to you.”

That Peace which passeth understanding. It is not the understanding of this world. For things are never as they seem, my friends, never truly as they seem.

This world of Maya, illusion, the shadowy parts of ourselves showing through intensely right now, bringing secrets to light, provides us ample opportunity to complete this deep, deep stage of our individual and collective journeys.

As Gerold Janpowlski says, “Love is letting go of fear.”

Just breathe. And give thanks.

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Better Days

Better Days


Those days of punishment
and confinement
over now,
I died a thousand times,
and still am here,
heart filled with gratitude,
heart filled with song,
clearing spaces,
new space,
new heart,
new me.

In that time of dying,
lessons learned,
tools given,
tools of healing
and forgiveness,
led me through
the labyrinth,

And out of the primordial goo,
these wings, these wings,
they grew, they grew.

Some cannot recognize me now,
so used to my caterpillar days,
so used to my wounded warrior ways,
that these wings, these wings,
they cannot see these wings.

Perhaps their rainbow iridescent hues
are too brilliant
to see through
caterpillar eyes.

© Kamea Moonmaiden

Kaypacha’s Astrology For The Soul, August 16, 2017


I am finally back again – with my particular chart, Sun in Cancer with Leo cusp influence, Pisces Moon and Aries rising, just for starters, the current configurations of the stars have been creating all sorts of unexpected circumstances which have taken up quite a bit of time. And wow, that time has flown! Not to mention that the world has gone even more crazy, so let’s all remember to breathe and always keep our seatbelts fastened.

This week Kaypacha talks at us from a beautiful area in Italy, giving us beautiful advice for how to handle this transformative energy that we will be experiencing with this total solar eclipse. He said it had just been raining and might rain again any moment – and at that moment it was raining here in Oklahoma, which it has been doing every night lately. So nice.

The moon was in Gemini on Wednesday, giving lots of ideas to us all, lots of changes going on all around, then we moved on into Cancer Thursday and Friday, and boy did I have a rough time with those two days! Usually I am quite at home with the Moon in Cancer, but the Sun in Leo conjunct Mars with Venus in Cancer and the Moon in opposition to Pluto with Uranus in Aries, Saturn in Sagittarius, Mercury retrograde in Virgo, it has actually flattened me, but the mermaid energy has revived me today. Just need to be submerged in water for half an hour with candles and soft music and a couple of my favorite crystals.

My apologies for digressing so much, so excited about the eclipse tomorrow. Remember to use protection! And it will be at 1:05 p.m. in Oklahoma, there are links online which will show what time it will be wherever you are, if you didn’t already check, which of course you most likely have.

When the Moon was in Cancer, she and Venus were both square Jupiter, and Sunday the North Node of the Moon will be conjunct the Sun for the next week or so. And the Moon is moving into Leo just in time for the New Moon and Total Solar Eclipse in Leo tomorrow. This will be a balsamic conjunction with Mars 1st at 28 degrees and 53 minutes of Leo trine Uranus in Aries. Saturn in Sagittarius will be conjunct Black Moon Lilith trine Sun on Tuesday.

(Kaypacha always gives much more information. I am merely doing typing up a summary for posterity sake and so I can look back over these in the future).

“I am thou, thee is me, thee is thou, thou is me. Like the Mayan saying, In La’kesh, a la’kin.”

There is madness within and around us. These are wild times. And the deal is that this isn’t just an eclipse, but Mars conjunct the Sun double intensifies it, along with the North Node of the Moon and the New Moon

The Sabian symbol for the total solar eclipse. Definitely the mermaid energy of Cancer definitely did bring us some rain. Here we have a mermaid emerging from the ocean, preparing to be reborn in human form. This goes back to Lemuria, before Atlantis, when our bodies were not so dense and physical, and there was more fluidity and more unity consciousness, recognizing the consciousness in the trees, and the rocks and the stars. This was before the patriarchy, we had a time of knowing who we were and how connected we are to the whole universe. Time to surrender to mermaid consciousness.

Also Black Moon Lilith is conjunct Saturn in Sagittarius, and apparently a whole article could be written about that aspect as well, for she is the shadow and conjunct Saturn in Sag it gives us the feeling of being ashamed of how much we know, the truth that is within us. Saturn wants to lock down and add dogma to every religion, but Black Moon Lilith is the wildish side of things, in touch with Nature. Her truth is ever expanding. We will be having intense feelings, complex relationship issues and experiences, The intensity isn’t over yet.

Newtonian physics is true. We are being transformed by a powerful divine feminine energy. We are changing. Sagittarius is mutable, changeable. Uranus in Aries (retrograde) has to do with new futuristic ideas, independence, freedom, we are hitting our limits and need to come to some agreements about living together in a sustainable way.

(and the day before watching this, I read an article about mermaids focusing on some of the same points – cosmic synchronicity).

And now we are having a time of remembering. Remembering who we were and reclaiming our power.

The sabian symbol for Uranus in Aries is the music of the sphere,

Pluto is going into Aquarius in October and it hasn’t been there for 230 years, and Aquarius is the 11th sign, the sign of the scientist, the genius, the computer geek, the extraterrestrial. And the Moon grabs that Aquarian energy during the lunar eclipse (full moon in Aquarius August 7, penumbral eclipse), and has been bringing up old emotional garbage and she’s going to block the sun. We have been coming and going. It’s like – what the bleep? LOL.

Our selfish habits, stuck patterns, emotional insecurities, wanting to hold onto somebody, and this moment when the moon covers the sun, it’s time to rid ourselves of old ways of seeking security as taught in childhood and past lives and really come into a new way of being expressive.

Mars is a big player right now, and has a moon called Phobos – same word root as phobia – meaning fear. Mars is the warrior, being conjunct the sun during eclipse has us needing to face our fears and also be ready to fly by the seats of our pants.

Leo is like a flower. It’s like going from bud to flower, then it becomes fruit, then it dies when Scorpio comes around.

We may push people away because we need a lot of space during this flowering process. But then we must remember were are a beam of Light. There is a trail of ascended masters behind us, offering us support and encouragement. We just need to fill out the paper work and go to the new country – (the new world of 5D consciousness).

Kaypacha says all this and so much more. And I am finally doing better. Yoga and physical therapy are helping. Lots of change. My youngest son just left for college last week. So proud of him for winning a football scholarship.

This week’s mantra: When I really look at it, all of life is a chance, and I refuse to face my fear, I will never learn to dance. Action in the face of fear.
May you take a chance and learn to dance.

Namaste. Aloha. So. Much. Love.

Rainbow Blessings. A’ho Mitakuye Oyasin.

Kaypacha’s Astrology For The Soul, July 19, 2017


This week Kaypacha says there is so much going on, he has to show us using his solar system program. The moon is in Gemini, moving into Cancer tomorrow, then into Leo on Sunday when we have the New Moon at 0 degrees and 44 minutes in Leo. Then we have a Sun/Moon/Mars conjunction, a very powerful and joyful New Moon. The Sun squares Uranus on the cusp at 28 degrees to 28 degrees. Mercury is coming up to Leo soon, conjunct with the North Node of the Moon, which will be in Leo for the next year and a half.

Venus is in opposition to Saturn, which will be exact on Monday, and the Sun will be exactly conjunct Mars next Wednesday.

Earth, Mars, Jupiter and Uranus are in a big T-square. Also, Black Moon Lilith is in alignment in Saturn and also in opposition to Venus, while Chiron is in alignment with Neptune in Pisces.

Venus in opposition has to do with seeds being sewn, babies being born, relationships being formed.

Jupiter in Libra and Saturn in Sagittarius have been there since last October, and Tom asks us these questions about our lives at that time. Where were you? What decisions did you make about finances, relationships, love? When these aspects came into place, it inspired many of us to question our basic values – and these aspects conjunct the Great Attractor, the biggest thing in the Universe which swallows galaxies and draws all of us inward, wind blowing off everything that’s not you, as you get drawn back into Source, the ultimate Sagittarian quest – the Holy Grail.

Venus has gone around 180 degrees now, hitting Lilith first – the ultimate search for meaning that goes beyond right or wrong. It is the quest itself. Venus in Gemini stimulates our curiousity, leads us to the Great Attractor, and to finding deeper connection and understanding and ability to own our truth, what it means to be human, to be alive, to love, to be male, female, on this planet at this time.

The thing is, we can make mistakes, we can cause others pain, we can be hurt by others, but there is something beyond this. My soul is calling me. Sun square Uranus indicates who I want and need in my life and who I don’t. Coming into Saturn has to do with time, commitment, boundaries. We are each stepping into our own King or Queen. This is when we learn when it’s right to say no and when it’s right to say yes. The challenge is this: I want to move into relationship, but I don’t want to lose myself. The other may wish to control me, or attempt to influence me to share their values.

I need to evaluate here – do we have the same values, the same truths, the same quests?

The challenge is to be in relationship without losing my core truth or being unable to speak my truth, or just going along with it because of not knowing what else to do. (I know how this can be).

The gift of New Moon in Leo is that we can all now be our authentic original selves, speaking our own truth. In square with Uranus mixes it all up. Uranus is the Great Mixer. What individual things existed before? After Uranus arrives, they are pulverized and born again. The other gift is knowing this: I am real, I am authentic, and I’d love to be loved. So we will put ourselves out there, paint our paintings, write our poetry, get up behind a microphone and record, send the world our message.

Kaypacha also talks a bit about the Great American Eclipse on August 21 – the climax of the eclipse season. As always, he is so worth taking the time to watch.

Be in the Now and not attached to what seems to be the truth – it’s all part of the quest. The Sun and Moon emerging out of Cancer – the Mother – is like all of us being born again. And now we have wings.

This week’s mantra: Like a butterfly emerging out of the cocoon, I have been transformed inside. All parts of myself now aligned in truth, I have nothing left to hide.

Yesterday, July 19, I turned 55. And I just discovered that the giant coronal hole in the sun which ejected solar winds towards the earth from July 14-17 hits Oklahoma directly – one of the few places in Oklahoma where this happens. No wonder things have been so curious around here. And busy.

Happy New Moon in Leo!!!!

Kaypacha: Namaste. Aloha. So. Much. Love.

Kamea: Rainbow Blessings of Love and Light. I love you all so much.

Golden Keys in Children’s Literature

Golden Keys in Children’s Literature

Pondering on the dream I had almost two years ago, about all the masters, saints, avatars, wise ones, earth angels and boddhisatvas were gathered on a high flat mountain plateau like the one in Taos. The air itself was golden and a loud voice declared, “Ho, Dragon Slayers. The time has come to cease slaying the Dragon. You are all now to be Dragon Tamers. And all the keys will be found in the ancient texts, myths, holy books,songs and stories of all times.

For we are the writers of this epic human story, and it is huge. The whole Universe has been joyously awaiting our ascension into the Golden Age.

Even children’s books and fairy tales hold the keys. The Chronicles of Narnia give keys to dealing with planetary transformation, and also sacrifice, overcoming the deep dark secrets of magic through innocence and surrender, only to achieve resurrection, overturning the ancient dark secrets with the older magic of LOVE. Aslan, for C.S. Lewis, represents Jesus Christ. But also God, the creator of Narnia, and also providing the doorway into the new world when corruption brings Narnia to its demise. And the paradise he takes Lucy, Edmund, Peter and Susan is far more real and beautiful than either Narnia or Earth could ever be. “Farther up and further in!” Asian joyously sings as he leads his beloved children to their true home. Of course all their loved ones are there, for they have crossed over the rainbow bridge through a dirty stable door. Things are not always as they seem. The false prophet, an ape disguised as Aslan, is the one who brought war and corruption across the land. Perhaps Lewis was also prophetic, for there certainly are familiar themes in American politics (and other countries as well) going on today.

The two other books coming to my mind currently, containing golden keys to taming the Dragon are Heidi and The Secret Garden. Both stories emphasize the healing power of Nature. Both Heidi and Mary Collins from The Secret Garden lose their mothers at an early age. Mary also loses her father. Both are sent to live with relatives. Both have issues at first with their new homes, but after spending time out in Nature, each with a friend who guides them (Peter the goat herd in Heidi, and Dickon, the animal and nature loving brother of Martha, Mary’s nurse maid in The Secret Garden).

And they both have cousins who are crippled. Well to do children who are given everything their doctors and nurses and busy, mostly absent fathers can think of, except fresh air, sunshine and nature. Both are motherless as well. In both stories the heroines undergo deep personal transformation and healing, trials and tribulations, and after Nature teaches them her secrets, they share this golden key with their crippled cousins. Mary Collins’ cousin is Colin, Heidi’s cousin is Clara.

It is upon taking these children outside, Colin to the Secret Garden, and Clara to the Swiss Alps where Heidi returns to live with her beloved and troubled grandfather, that they both achieve true healing, within and without, and learn to walk again. And while Heidi and Mary are the facilitators and Nature the golden key, the other golden key is within each of them and each of us.

Which leads me to a scene in The Secret Garden where Mary and Colin are talking about the Universe. And Colin tells her about a holy man, one so holy that if one should be blessed to look into his mouth, one would see the whole universe. Mary argues with him about this idea, declaring it illogical, and Colin says it doesn’t have to make sense.

I feel Frances Hodges Burnett and Johanna Spyri were pointing out the golden keys to healing in these magical tales, just as Lewis was in the Narnia tales, for meditation can take us to other realms within.

As above, so below. As without, so within.

It is clearly evident this Mars and Mercury conjunct in Cancer along with the Sun opposing Pluto in Capricorn is causing some extreme behavior (and bizarre, and horrific) on the global scene, but at the same time people are praying, people are healing, people are gathering together and rising up for human rights and for our only planet.

There’s been times when I fell into despair and couldn’t get out of bed much due to many challenging health issues and depression (listing them anymore is claiming them and am done with that as best as possible). And then when I began spending more time outside, doing yoga, planting herbs for my cooking, coloring mandalas, meditating and going to my own inner sun did I begin to truly heal on a deep cellular level.

And we all are healing. We are each little holograms of the Universe, and we must be like hollow bones and keep our vessels pure.

Namaste, my friends. Blessed be.

Kaypacha’s Astrology for the Soul, June 28, 2017

Kaypacha’s Astrology for the Soul, June 28, 2017

Now it’s already July 01, and just getting around to the important aspects of this week. Been super busy! Yoga four times so far this week, a great physical therapy session, doctor visit which went well (my heart is strong), and four hot stone massages, three days with my Loralai and the sudden manifestation of a car. I was talking about getting one soon over a year ago, and at this point I had pretty much surrendered the idea, had written down the stages I needed to go through first, and suddenly my daughter was given a decent SUV and so she gave me her car. And my son JJ went out and bought himself a car yesterday. He’s a Virgo. Usually earth signs are very good at managing their money. I digress.

This week Kaypacha talks at us from a meadow overlooking a bay, but I am not sure of the location. It’s beautiful, though, as is the report.

Wednesday the Moon was still in Virgo, but she moved on into Libra yesterday, the beautiful energy of which was palpable last night. Just love Oklahoma summer night thunderstorms! Especially when just a couple friends visit. In Libra the Moon is influenced by Venus, creating potential romantic encounters. Mercury and Mars are conjunct all weekend, along with the Sun, which are all trine Pisces in Neptune, opposite Pluto in Capricorn, squaring it off. The Moon is conjunct Jupiter in Libra, bringing the feminine energies alive on this planet. Saturn is still in Sagittarius and Uranus is in Aries, and although Venus is still in Taurus, she is moving on into Gemini on Tuesday, creating a lift in the energies.

When the Moon reaches 9 degrees and 24 minutes of Libra, we will be in our first quarter square. I frequently feel inspired to light candles and connect with Nature in any way possible for the auspicious stages of the Moon (like sitting outside on my balcony next to my growing garden, but further out and away from civilization is preferable). Monday, when she is in Scorpio, she is going to oppose Uranus.

Also on Monday, she will trine the Sun, trine Neptune and sextile Pluto, which will be amazing. All in all, we will be having a Grand Cross with all the aspects going on.

The Cancer – Capricorn opposition creates a longing for connection, for nurturing, for touch. There will be a desire to connect with the other, friends, family, lovers, the community. We need each other for support, love, nurturing, procreation, and protection. At the same time Mars in Cancer will tend to lead us toward beautiful, sexual, amazing lovemaking connections. This is the weekend for it while Venus still basks in Taurus, one of the two signs she rules (Libra is the other, so hence a gob ton of Venusian energy to compliment three signs in Cancer and one in Pisces. Once Venus moves into Gemini, Pluto in Capricorn will be the only earth sign for a wee bit.

This is a weekend to fall in love, or fall back in love. Mars in Cancer opposite Pluto in Capricorn provides a strong magnetic pull, while Venus in Taurus is all about being in our bodies, honoring them, and loving ourselves first and foremost, but that’s what leads to love with another. When we are in love with life, with ourselves, and with the Universe, we radiate and attract love. It just happens.

Kaypacha then mentions one of Michael Moore’s films which I happened to watch a couple months ago, “Where Are We Going To Invade Next?” Moore goes to many different countries and asks important qualities about various topics like paid vacation time, mental health care, school lunches, shorter school days and work days, and brings up the powerful women of Iceland, who had a peaceful revolution and jailed their corrupt bankers. These women ask Moore how do the people in the United States sleep at night, where we are in a patriarchy on steroids and individualism has gone overboard. How can we be at peace with veterans and others living on the streets and the many other injustices going on which have gone rather amuck to a whole new extreme lately. We can learn a lot from Iceland!

The feminine focuses on community, as does the Age of Aquarius, and the South Node of the Moon in Aquarius will also call us to stand up for all our communities. But many have to wake up first.

He says all this and much much more, perhaps now that it’s the weekend you will have time to watch it, but my apology for the delay, time has been just whizzing on by. The shadow aspect of Cancer is getting all wrapped up in ourselves and needing attention, needing to be held, seeking approval, and being perhaps unconscious. The lighter side is the desire to nurture, care for the home and the children, and to give love and friendship.

Mars and Mercury opposing Pluto can also get people into a space of wanting more, more money, more sex, more, more, more until we are addicted in a codependent fashion. So this is something to be mindful of and keep our boundaries clear and our chakras balanced and auras nice and glassy smooth, not sponges at all. Jupiter in Libra encourages us to listen to other people and pay attention to their needs as well.

This week’s mantra: I can be a bottomless pit, of longing and needing more until such a time as I realize I am filled with love to the core.

Because we are love! That is our essence.

https://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=gNkpr78xF4w

Kaypacha’s Farewell: Namaste. Aloha. So. Much. Love.

Kamea’s Farewell: A’ho Mitakuye Oyasin, my friends. We are all related. I love you and I finally love me.

Paradoxes

Paradoxes

To be here
and not here,
parallel universes
obvious and apparent,
for things have
gotten strange.

Yet we are still here,
and despite the strangeness
and obvious brutality
of the dying patriarchal paradigm,
we are birthing ourselves
into a new world,
for we are the children of the sun,
And no task is too mighty
for us to accomplish United.

This is why they seek to divide us,
by shade of skin,
the ways we pray,
the ways we vote,
how much money we make,
how able bodied we are,
our choice of gender and sexual identity.

So we rise up everywhere
for our freedoms,
which are naturally inherent,
as are our rights
to clean air, clean water,
unadulterated food.
And the right to not be
brutalized because of skin color
or religion,
or living in a country
filled with oil,
we rise up and demand peace!

They will try to keep us distracted
by scandal after scandal,
all while attacking the planet and
her people with a whole new
flavor of ferocity,
for they are so afraid of the
progress we have made,
they would have it all undone,
for the sake of white supremacy
the hierarchical man
with the plan
of destruction.

We are at war
yet we are also at peace,
people everywhere choosing
this path, praying, meditating,
finding we are so much
more than we ever dreamed,
and United we can make a change,
we can save this world,
but first we have to learn
to live with each other.

This is the golden key which
opens the door to the New Age.
The journey is still long and hard,
yet we are closer than ever before.
So keep shining, hold onto
and Love one another,
for it is Love that sets us free.
So things are crazy and miraculous
at the same time.
The old world is dying,
the new is being born.
Mad folk run war machines,
while magic folk embrace
shamanism, serenity, transformation.

We rise up together for every cause.
People marching in the streets,
people bringing peace,
choosing peace,
people brave enough
to bring new life
into this topsy turvy world,
we are the children of the sun.
We are the Golden ones.

Namaste.

© Kamea Moonmaiden