My Miracle Boy

My Miracle Boy


Twenty two years ago today, my labor finally truly began for the birth of my son Nicolas. He was over ten days post dates and I didn’t want an induction or another cesarean, which my daughter Alyssa, baby #4, was born by. A dear friend offered to help me stay at home as long as possible to prevent induction. I did a lot of research and lots of birthing affirmations, like “My body knows how to create a perfect, healthy baby and I will let it.” And, “My body knows how to give birth normally and I will let it.”

After bumpy road rides and some other recommended forms of self induction, my contractions finally began right about 2:00 p.m. that day. I called my friend and we began walking around the block. Alternating with sitting outside on the back patio, enjoying the weather which had become cooler finally as a thunderstorm was coming on in.

About 8:00 p.m. the storm got very close and a clap of thunder struck, breaking my waters. Now for me, every birth became longer and more difficult rather than more quickly and easier. Well, all my babies were big, ranging from 8-10 pounds.

We decided to get to the hospital at that time, for there was some meconium in the water. I labored all night long, walking up and down the halls as long as I could, and sneaking juice and crackers whenever the nurses weren’t in the room.

By about 7:00 o’clock in the morning, my doctor came to check me and decided to start IV fluids. A couple hours later they decided to start me on Pitocin. At that point I had been in so much pain for over 24 hours I asked for an epidural, even though I had hoped to have a completely natural birth.

So they did, and I dozed off for quite while. Woke to the urge to push and called the nurse, who checked me and probably figured it would take me hours to push since I had had an epidural. I pushed once and my baby’s head began to crown. So the nurse held his head back for ten minutes until the doctor arrived. Not my doctor, who had agreed to go with my birthing plan, but a doctor I had never meant before. I pushed twice and he was born, experiencing what is called a precipitous birth.

I told the doctor not to cut the life giving cord which would provide him with oxygen while he adjusted to living outside the womb, and he said in a thick Okie accent, “That’s not the way we do it with meconium.” And so he cut the cord and I swear if I had been able to move my legs I would have kicked his hands away. Then they handed my baby to an attendant, who deep suctioned him before giving him a chance to breathe. So during that process, he inhaled meconium and both his lungs burst. And they didn’t notice a thing was wrong with him while they washed him up and checked him out before giving him to me to nurse.

I tried to nurse but he couldn’t. He was breathing but would just back away and I could sense he was distressed, so I asked them to come check him out again. They took him back to the nursery and checked him out again for about twenty minutes and brought him back to me. By this point, he was already beginning to struggle to breathe, and there was no way he was going to be able to nurse. He was fighting for his life. So this time I called them and was adamant that he be checked out more thoroughly immediately, sensing this was a life threatening emergency.

They took him away and wouldn’t talk to me for hours. Every time I called, the only thing they would say was that he was very sick.

My daughter Nina drove the rest of the kids home and lit a candle and prayed, asking God for a sign that her new baby brother was going to be alright. Then she went in the back yard and a thousand birds flew by. And the day before he was born a Monarch butterfly landed on my belly and stayed there (as I sat resting on the patio behind my house in the warm sun) for about half an hour.

Those were both signs from the Heavenly realm. Signs that angels are watching over us, and especially immediately praying for intervention for a close loved one.

It wasn’t until about midnight that the doctor who saved Nick’s life came in and told us what was going on. They had to give him a chest tube twice and when that didn’t work, on a respirator. He also developed hospital acquired Group B strep septicemia, which they found out the next day. It not only got into his blood, it was in his respiratory and urinary systems. So they had him on all kinds of tubes and was strapped down because he kept yanking them out. My baby boy was a true fighter.

They told us not to touch him for it would make him excited but I insisted I must, knowing a mother’s touch can one of the most healing things for a newborn baby. They told me that was okay as long as I didn’t move my hand. So I held my hand on his little arm, or held it on his chest and looked into his hazel eyes and he looked back at me, and his eyes were clear and bright even though they had him sedated so as to not struggle so much and then another medicine to maintain his blood pressure. He told me without words not to worry, not to be afraid, that he would be okay.

His father was very supportive, as was my doctor, who arranged for me to be able to stay in the hospital for three whole days, due to the circumstances. So we stayed with Nick as much as possible, praying the whole time, and then would go to my room where I used a double Medela pump to provide colostrum for my baby. Then we would go to the chapel and weep and pray.

They told us to prepare ourselves for the worst. Fifty percent of babies who only had the Strep died, they said. And Nick was working on healing his lungs. They said the best case scenario would be that he would need to be on a respirator for at least a month.

So we prayed more, our families joining in. And at the end of his third day of life, his father’s sister and husband who is a pastor and their whole congregation were praying for Nick at the same time my mom and a spiritual group of friends were doing the same – one group in Indiana, my mom’s group in Los Angeles. Us in the middle. And right after we got back from the chapel, for we had been praying at that time too, not knowing about the timing of these serendipitous groups of people praying for our son, the nurse came running down to tell us Nicolas was breathing against the respirator, and she had already begun to turn it down. She was so joyous and we burst into tears and rushed to the nursery. His eyes had brightened even more, and we were told we could hold him the next day.

We had to go home that night, but by 5:00 a.m. I was asking if I could return to be with my baby.

The nurses loved us at that point and said yes. And there he was, respirator off, with a little hood for oxygen over him, NG tube pulled out too!

We were both able to hold him that day, and I was able to rock him and give him a bottle of my very own amazing colostrum. And the next day, I was able to finally nurse him. And my milk was already in, thanks to the powerful double Medela pump.

Next time the NICU doctor checked him, I told her we had prayed for a miracle, and she replied, “Well, it certainly worked! He is doing very well, a beautiful baby boy. He’s a fighter.” And she beamed at us.

He was transferred to the regular nursery the next day, but they kept him until he was 9 days old, a joyous day of returning home with our new baby finally. For we had pretty much lived up at the hospital with him until we could take him home.

And now he is an amazing, strong, loving, creative young man, about to turn 22 years old. Out of all of my six kids, only went through this one scary ordeal which turned into a miracle. And even though every baby is a miracle and I love all mine with all my heart, I will always call Nick Nixta Scheid my miracle boy.

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Golden Keys in Children’s Literature

Golden Keys in Children’s Literature

Pondering on the dream I had almost two years ago, about all the masters, saints, avatars, wise ones, earth angels and boddhisatvas were gathered on a high flat mountain plateau like the one in Taos. The air itself was golden and a loud voice declared, “Ho, Dragon Slayers. The time has come to cease slaying the Dragon. You are all now to be Dragon Tamers. And all the keys will be found in the ancient texts, myths, holy books,songs and stories of all times.

For we are the writers of this epic human story, and it is huge. The whole Universe has been joyously awaiting our ascension into the Golden Age.

Even children’s books and fairy tales hold the keys. The Chronicles of Narnia give keys to dealing with planetary transformation, and also sacrifice, overcoming the deep dark secrets of magic through innocence and surrender, only to achieve resurrection, overturning the ancient dark secrets with the older magic of LOVE. Aslan, for C.S. Lewis, represents Jesus Christ. But also God, the creator of Narnia, and also providing the doorway into the new world when corruption brings Narnia to its demise. And the paradise he takes Lucy, Edmund, Peter and Susan is far more real and beautiful than either Narnia or Earth could ever be. “Farther up and further in!” Asian joyously sings as he leads his beloved children to their true home. Of course all their loved ones are there, for they have crossed over the rainbow bridge through a dirty stable door. Things are not always as they seem. The false prophet, an ape disguised as Aslan, is the one who brought war and corruption across the land. Perhaps Lewis was also prophetic, for there certainly are familiar themes in American politics (and other countries as well) going on today.

The two other books coming to my mind currently, containing golden keys to taming the Dragon are Heidi and The Secret Garden. Both stories emphasize the healing power of Nature. Both Heidi and Mary Collins from The Secret Garden lose their mothers at an early age. Mary also loses her father. Both are sent to live with relatives. Both have issues at first with their new homes, but after spending time out in Nature, each with a friend who guides them (Peter the goat herd in Heidi, and Dickon, the animal and nature loving brother of Martha, Mary’s nurse maid in The Secret Garden).

And they both have cousins who are crippled. Well to do children who are given everything their doctors and nurses and busy, mostly absent fathers can think of, except fresh air, sunshine and nature. Both are motherless as well. In both stories the heroines undergo deep personal transformation and healing, trials and tribulations, and after Nature teaches them her secrets, they share this golden key with their crippled cousins. Mary Collins’ cousin is Colin, Heidi’s cousin is Clara.

It is upon taking these children outside, Colin to the Secret Garden, and Clara to the Swiss Alps where Heidi returns to live with her beloved and troubled grandfather, that they both achieve true healing, within and without, and learn to walk again. And while Heidi and Mary are the facilitators and Nature the golden key, the other golden key is within each of them and each of us.

Which leads me to a scene in The Secret Garden where Mary and Colin are talking about the Universe. And Colin tells her about a holy man, one so holy that if one should be blessed to look into his mouth, one would see the whole universe. Mary argues with him about this idea, declaring it illogical, and Colin says it doesn’t have to make sense.

I feel Frances Hodges Burnett and Johanna Spyri were pointing out the golden keys to healing in these magical tales, just as Lewis was in the Narnia tales, for meditation can take us to other realms within.

As above, so below. As without, so within.

It is clearly evident this Mars and Mercury conjunct in Cancer along with the Sun opposing Pluto in Capricorn is causing some extreme behavior (and bizarre, and horrific) on the global scene, but at the same time people are praying, people are healing, people are gathering together and rising up for human rights and for our only planet.

There’s been times when I fell into despair and couldn’t get out of bed much due to many challenging health issues and depression (listing them anymore is claiming them and am done with that as best as possible). And then when I began spending more time outside, doing yoga, planting herbs for my cooking, coloring mandalas, meditating and going to my own inner sun did I begin to truly heal on a deep cellular level.

And we all are healing. We are each little holograms of the Universe, and we must be like hollow bones and keep our vessels pure.

Namaste, my friends. Blessed be.

Paradoxes

Paradoxes

To be here
and not here,
parallel universes
obvious and apparent,
for things have
gotten strange.

Yet we are still here,
and despite the strangeness
and obvious brutality
of the dying patriarchal paradigm,
we are birthing ourselves
into a new world,
for we are the children of the sun,
And no task is too mighty
for us to accomplish United.

This is why they seek to divide us,
by shade of skin,
the ways we pray,
the ways we vote,
how much money we make,
how able bodied we are,
our choice of gender and sexual identity.

So we rise up everywhere
for our freedoms,
which are naturally inherent,
as are our rights
to clean air, clean water,
unadulterated food.
And the right to not be
brutalized because of skin color
or religion,
or living in a country
filled with oil,
we rise up and demand peace!

They will try to keep us distracted
by scandal after scandal,
all while attacking the planet and
her people with a whole new
flavor of ferocity,
for they are so afraid of the
progress we have made,
they would have it all undone,
for the sake of white supremacy
the hierarchical man
with the plan
of destruction.

We are at war
yet we are also at peace,
people everywhere choosing
this path, praying, meditating,
finding we are so much
more than we ever dreamed,
and United we can make a change,
we can save this world,
but first we have to learn
to live with each other.

This is the golden key which
opens the door to the New Age.
The journey is still long and hard,
yet we are closer than ever before.
So keep shining, hold onto
and Love one another,
for it is Love that sets us free.
So things are crazy and miraculous
at the same time.
The old world is dying,
the new is being born.
Mad folk run war machines,
while magic folk embrace
shamanism, serenity, transformation.

We rise up together for every cause.
People marching in the streets,
people bringing peace,
choosing peace,
people brave enough
to bring new life
into this topsy turvy world,
we are the children of the sun.
We are the Golden ones.

Namaste.

© Kamea Moonmaiden

Veterans Arriving At Standing Rock

Veterans Arriving At Standing Rock

I am happy to say that despite the Army Corps of Engineers issuing an eviction notice to the Oceti Sakowin Camp, but then making it clear they would not be using force (after global outcry, good job world) and despite the fact that the governor of North Dakota also issued an evacuation notice supposedly for the safety of the people because there was a blizzard this week, so the temperatures are dropping to subzero, thousands of veterans are arriving, and will act as human bodyguards for the peaceful prayerful Water Protectors, led by the wise elders of the Standing Rock Sioux.

Despite the complete transparency and actual live streams of all the barbaric atrocities committed against the peaceful protectors being witness by hundreds of thousands of people, the Morton County Sheriff’s Department continues to spin outlandish narratives about the group of “bad protestors” who have thrown rocks, burning logs, and even Molotov cocktails. What many of us have seen are peaceful protectors being attacked with dogs, maced, shot with tear gas, flash grenades, beanbag bullets, rubber bullets and water can one in subzero temperature. The narratives being spun by ND law enforcement are all lies. There was a DAPL employee sent in with a truck who shot a round of live ammo but he was arrested but not charged, so his gun was planted on a woman named Red Fawn, who is being used as a scapegoat for that incident. And she is a beautiful warrior woman, innocent of bogus charges and full of Light. They changed her charges and are sending her case to Federal Court. There is never any evidence of the oil moon’s allegations.

Regardless of all that, when the whole world is watching and UN delegates and CNN reporters are on the ground along with thousands of veterans, the outlook is positive. The treaties of 1851 and 1868 need to be honored, and the land returned to the Sioux. The Oceti Sakowin.

I also found out that the same company attempting to bully and drill its way under the Missouri River despite injunctions from the Department of Justice and the Army Corps Of Engineers to stop has a pipeline spill elsewhere in North Dakota already, and a new one in Pennsylvania which could potentially poison the water of four million people. The Dakota Access Pipeline could poison the water of 18 million folks.

I joined in a world wide prayer circle past Saturday at 2 CST, and will do the same tomorrow. There are many prayer circles and beautiful videos to watch. I am immersing myself whenever possible in these live streams to the point where it almost seems I am there. Praying in the morning, noon and night. And all over the planet, indigenous people are leading the movement to save the planet. For water truly is Life and we are water. And we definitely cannot drink oil! Together we can change the world. It is time.

Rainbow Blessings of Love and Light, my friends. We are the ones we have been waiting for.

#NoDAPL #MniWiconi #WaterIsLife

Stepping Past The Equinox

Stepping Past The Equinox


We are stepping past the Equinox
basking in the Void,
looking back at the Eclipse –
we are open.

The world

heaves and shifts

yet again –

people are screaming
in the streets.
Revolution here

everywhere,
let it move with Love.

Let the Water Protectors
lead the way,
lead the way
into a Brand New Day.

A Brand New Golden Dawn

Peace at last ~

Love will reign supreme,

for we are Golden.

We are water.

Water is Life and Life is Sacred.

Each of us is Sacred,

none more than any other,

we are Family.

One human Family,

I am you and you are me,

hearts filled with Love

are forever free,

we are Gaia’s children.

We are stepping past the Equinox

Looking back at the Eclipse.

We are open.

 

© Kamea Moonmaiden

Kaypacha’s Pele Report! 09/22/16

Kaypacha’s Pele Report! 09/22/16

Okay, first of all I kept checking til about midnight for the Pele Report last night and did not see it. Then I was super busy all day and just had the chance to check. Secondly, this week Tom is talking at us from a beautiful mystery location which can be revealed by reading the chart at the beginning of the report. Alas, my astrology skills are not to that level yet, working on it, though. It looks kinda like the Uinta mountains in Utah.

Thank God for Mercury going direct finally! With the Sun square Mars we have been hitting our heads against brick walls, moving faster than the Sun in Virgo wishes us to.

We have just reached the Autumnal Equinox, with equal day and equal night, with the Sun moving on into Libra, with the Moon in Cancer squaring the Sun and now Jupiter, which has thankfully moved into Libra after such a long year in Virgo. We are always 3/4 of the way through the quarters of the Moon.

Saturn in Sagittarius square Neptune in Pisces has to do with Neptune’s innocence, openness, without boundaries, open hearts, dreaming, flowing, and Saturn comes around and brings us back to this Third Dimensional reality where we have got to get that money into the bank. It’s all about Kronos, the Father of Time – keeping up with our schedules, heavy and demanding energy, asking what do we need to have done. What can we accomplish? Saturn also wants to stop Neptune, who is Nature – Saturn represents the Oil Companies and Mother Nature is taking a stand with Her defenders against this monstrous global attack currently going on.

Moon in Cancer is all about my needs, my desires, where I am with others, who the heck am I without them, see me, touch me, feel me please! The swing of the pendulum bringing us to the heart of our relationships, deep partnerships, where we smile and ask for favors and give favors, what can we do for each other. We want love and we want relationships – Venus in Scorpio brings a great deepening of this aspect of ourselves along with conjunct Black Moon Lilith, who guides us into the very depths of our souls.

The mantra this week: My challenge is to stay open, innocent and pure, while living a life that has struggle and strife, and I need to be tough, sharp and sure.

We need to keep our hearts open, balance the masculine and feminine, action and inaction, self indulgence and self sacrifice, addictive behaviors and rigidity. We gotta go with the flow, for real. Water is Life and we are Water!

Kaypacha is also known as Tom Lescher, and always relates so much more in such a soulful, easy to relate to way. I’m thankful for the Pele Report. I must admit I was freaking out a little bit until I watched it. Then everything inside of me and everywhere I see began to make sense again. Thank you Kaypacha! This woman is grateful. I’ll bet you go from 58,000 viewers to 100,000 by the end of this year, because this kind of growth is exponential. Great Ascension assistance!

https://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=XHsaeWCse7U

Kaypacha’s farewell: Aloha. Namaste. So. Much. Love.

Kamea Moonmaiden’s farewell: Rainbow Blessings of Love and Light. Om Shanti.

Happy Mabon!


May this portal between life and death, this turning of the seasons, bring you many blessings of love and light. May your harvests be bountiful! So many festivals going on! I love Fall – pumpkins, apple pies, goodies and Halloween. And cooler temperatures. Here in Oklahoma we can expect cooler than usual weather for the next week. And two days ago we had record breaking heat, lol. We have such erratic weather here.

Kaypacha hasn’t posted the Pele Report yet – should happen some time soon, and I will be sharing a summary as usual. Getting back to divination and crystal grids soon too – just kinda bit off more than I could chew for a while, working on being more organized and devoting myself to those activities at least once a week, for they are so healing and nourishing as well. Another project is going to be to record some of my poems set to music. And finish my first poetry book.

Just dropping in to say hello, had my steroid injection procedure yesterday, and all went well. Only a little sore, my good friends took care of me – I stayed over at their house last night. Finally getting the ovarian cyst issue taken care of next week – having surgery Friday to go ahead and remove my ovaries, that way this will never happen again. My surgeon is pregnant right now, and quite a compassionate doctor and certified in robotic surgery as well. It will only take a couple of weeks to recover from this – compared to months of pain already gone through that seems quite minimal. And my friends are so very supportive, both those who I encounter in 3D and my FB friends around the world. (And now WordPress blogosphere – I love you all!)

In the past two months have been able to do more massages than in the past year! Healing happens, even when it’s just inch by inch, so never give up! One of the things that helps a lot is coconut water.

Thank you for following my blog, my friends. I should be able to catch up a little here and there, filling in spare time with reading is so rewarding.

It’s so great that Mercury is direct again. That was an intense three week window. Whew!

Sunday we have our annual Groovefest celebration here in Norman. It’s hosted by Amnesty International and will feature nine hours of live music, human rights speakers and poetry, along with art displays, food vendors and lots of activities for the kids. It’s my favorite local festival here – Norman is known as the City of Festivals of Oklahoma. I love my town.

Rainbow Blessings, my friends. May peace be with you. Please hold me in your hearts and prayers til after my surgery – I greatly appreciate it. I k ow God works through surgeons, and is always watching over us. Guiding us. Loving us. We are blessed.