We Are All Going Home – We Are Water

We Are All Going Home – We Are Water

After everything that has happened at the Sacred Stone Camp and other camps associated with the Standing Rock Sioux and their valiant efforts to protect the water not just for their own tribe, their own future generations, but for all of us, I feel called to remain in a very prayerful space. Lyla June has called for us to be united in prayer, to make tomorrow, Sunday, OCtober 30, 2016 a day devoted to prayer and sacred ceremony in support of the water protectors in North Dakota and all over this planet.

I found this song by Ulali because it embodies this message so boldly, a message which needs to be listened to ever more urgently now than when it was released so many years ago (although this is a different version – recently updated).

For militarized police, tanks, beanbags, rubber bullets and mace are used against peacefully demonstrating people, something is terribly wrong. I am thankful for the bison which appeared on the horizon to lend strength to the people. May we offer sacred medicine tobacco in a prayerful manner and give thanks for this buffalo medicine.

I am a white woman with only a little bit of Cherokee. But my children carry more native blood than I do. And my stepdad, who adopted me as a child, is a member of the Osage tribe and I have been honored to watch the dances in Tahlequah with him and his husband once. I stand in solidarity with the Standing Rock Sioux and indigenous people all over the planet. The people shall be Idle No More – and it is here, at the grassroots level, that the flames of the 8th fire are being lit – the waters are being protected, blessed, cleansed, and in doing so we are protecting, blessing and cleansing ourselves, for we are water.

Deepest respect and thanks to those on the front lines putting their sacred radiant body temples in front of the machine. May the black snake come to its demise soon, soon, soon, as we explore and invest in greener, sustainable energy sources. And no, it won’t be easy. But we have to start. There is no point in saying it is already too late. What kind of legacy is that to hand over to our children? We must do what is right for the people and for the planet. And we cannot drink oil.

Mni Wiconi – A’ho Mitakuye Oyasin. I love you all. May your holiday weekend (Halloween – Samhain) be filled with fun times and cool costumes. Stay safe!

Kaypacha’s Astrology for the Soul, October 26, 2016

Okay, so Kaypacha gives us this week’s Pele Report from his own luscious backyard in Costa Rica. The Moon is in harmonizing Libra, but will be swinging on into Scorpio for the New Moon, so She will be conjunct the Sun and Black Moon Lilith until moving into Sagittarius (where Venus is currently hanging out) next Wednesday.

Venus in Sag and Saturn in Capricorn are squaring the Moon’s nodes and Mars is conjunct Pluto but is coming along to square Uranus in Aries which becomes exact Friday. Lots of big stuff going on in the stars and with each and every one of us.

Please check out the video and find out more about upcoming retreats a d workshops at the New Paradigm community.

I took lots of notes but have a terrible cold, but the mantra does sum things up nicely, as always: As I embrace my deep emotion and strive for conflict resolution, I live a life of full expression, not shut down by fear or suppression. (And may you live a life of full expression).

Included in this are many great tips for dealing with the intense incoming energies and for doing our inevitable shadow work.

Kaypacha: Namaste. Aloha. So much love. Kamea: Rainbow Blessings. Water is Life. Mni Wiconi.

Seeking Balance

Seeking Balance

Seeking balance
on the edge of the Razor,
breathing in one moment
pink and gold light,
so much love and light,

forgetting to breathe
the next day, or moment,
as pendulum swings down,
feeling collective fears,
collective frenetic frenzy,

in this Now of all Now
moments of all Time,
Space and Dimensions.

The pendulum swings again,
fear is replaced with Love –
a state of Grace where angels
just pop up in high school
parking lots and other
unexpected places,
following an honoring
ceremony for our young athletes,
my young athlete tall and strong,
he’s golden and grounded,
the pendulum he’s on
has found the balance
I always wished he would find.

In healing from the loss
of my healing organs,
my ovaries,
home of creation
in my golden triangle,
my pendulum has been
swinging rather wildly,
getting to know much
more about myself,
yet again.

And with circular breath
and a prayerful attitude,
the pendulum gently sways
rather than that wild
wild way of swinging,
and I am gently lifted
from the razor’s edge
and placed in a soft cocoon.

A cocoon of healing and
regeneration, a place
to rest and learn to
relax and release my
spirit ovaries and
my spirit womb,
for now that they
are gone
they are ever
more with me.

Could it be
this way with
loved ones lost?
Could they perhaps
be with us more in Spirit
than they ever could in flesh?

These kinds of ponderings
are why I turn inward
why I consult my heart
and find my loved ones there,
shining and loving me still,
for Heaven is here on Earth.

For those who have the
eyes to see.

Blessed be,
may we all find balance
as that pendulum sways
sometimes gently,
and swings sometimes

For we are ascending,
and Love will lead the way.
We are so much more than
we ever dare to dream!

Blessed breathing,
bless our water,
bless this earth,
Gaia in all Her glory,
She gives us life,
and She tells us Now
it is time to Unite
and change our ways,
that there will be
a softer, greener,
more loving future
for our children’s children.

Many prayers for all,
now at the tipping point.
Love will set us free!

© Kamea Moonmaiden

Kaypacha’s Pele Report, 10/20/16

Kaypacha’s Pele Report, 10/20/16


This week Tom is in the city of Kalakmur, the twin city of Takal. This location is beautiful – Kalakmur means two temples, and the report gives a great view of the ancient temples there. This is 20 km north of Guatemala.

And now it’s Friday, one day after this was posted. For I went to my youngest son’s senior recognition night and was honored for being the mother of an athlete. He got several interceptions, as usual. But it was cold! So when I got home and warmed up, I fell asleep before I could watch all of Kaypacha.

He has two names and so do I. And two names for his report. I like that. Anyway, the Moon has just moved into Cancer, bringing with it nurturing and caring for our inner child, caring for our homes. And the Moon is in direct opposition to the powerful Mars/Pluto conjunction which is all about doing the work to help us realize our dreams, fulfill our desires, and act with integrity accordingly. Pluto is the lower octave of Mars, and it is because of our relationship with Mars that we know we have a soul. Because it’s the influence of Mars that makes us have desires, dreams and the ability to act on them.

The Sun is moving into Scorpio just as Venus moves on into Sagittarius, but Black Moon Lilith will remain in Scorpio for a few more months. This is giving us a tremendous opportunity to work on our relationships, to truly communicate, and to take off our masks.

This week’s mantra: To truly be loved you must see my soul. For that to happen, I must let go of protecting, hiding and needing control, and admit that you have what I need to grow.

Kaypacha says Namaste. Aloha. So. Much. Love.  And he says to make sure and celebrate the Day of the Dead, El Dia de los Muertos.

My sweet Alyssa happens to turn 27 that day and I am hopeful I may get to go visit her the weekend before that.

I love you all! Rainbow Blessings! Watch Kaypacha, he’s great medicine and gives great guidance for living in these extreme times. The turning of the ages!



On Head Standing – Overcoming Obstacles

I love Ganesh, the Hindu son of Paravati and Shiva. Since Paravati was human, when her son looked upon his father, his head burned up (there is another version where Shiva kills him, but I like this one better). Paravati was furious and demanded Shiva do something about it, so he gave him an elephant head and grew up to become quite revered. I can see why he would be the remover of obstacles – talk about overcoming obstacles! No human head, hmmmm, what shall we do? Oh! I know! An elephant’s head will do nicely for a young god. And indeed it did.

I have a little statue of Ganesh in my room. I mention this now for after going through surgery a little over two weeks ago – and a steroid injection into my sacroiliac a week before that – I am definitely overcoming obstacles. The pain wasn’t too bad – but getting back into being able to eat regularly was. And I discovered I am definitely lactose intolerant for the most part. Been avoiding gluten mostly for a while now, suspecting it was one of the culprits, and had cut out red meat, only had occasional chicken and different types of fish regularly. Lots of veggies. Legumes. Chopped or slivered nuts and nut pastes. Hummus. Only granola or other mostly healthy types of cereal. A banana every morning. Red grapes, oranges, cantalope, apples, berries – I love all fruit.

Well, before the surgery my stomach had been bothering me way more than usual for quite some time. That was one of the reasons I decided to go ahead with the surgery. And then several women close to people who are close to me developed ovarian cancer. That to me was a sign. So now I will never get ovarian cancer. At least that. But a body goes through some enormous adjustments when organs are removed. I don’t like to label the challenges I deal with, but fibromyalgia is the name of one of them, which is mostly under control. But things like surgery and extreme stress can bring it on. And it came along with a renewal of IBS which had been creeping in since August. To the point where I had to resume taking Levsin, which is an anti-spasmodic, and it wasn’t even working. In addition to that, papaya enzyme, TUMS and lots of coconut water and nectars like guava, mango, and pear.

Well, after the surgery it got so bad and my weight began to drop, which is a trigger for me because most of my adult life I have been at least twenty to thirty pounds underweight. I didn’t realize how tiny I looked. When I look back at pictures of myself, I am amazed the wind didn’t blow me away. And I was working my butt off raising a family of six kids at the time. I wasn’t very kind to my body. I ate every day – just usually skipped lunch, but if I was allergic to dairy and gluten and red meat and those were the things I was cooking for my kids – I wasn’t absorbing many nutrients. Malabsorption was going on for sure. That and having been struck by lightning through the telephone at the age of 18, along with heredity and bad posture and smoking cigarettes (I quit three and a half years ago) all contributed to the stomach and spine problems.

But I am not working on beating myself up, did that enough already. It is what it is, and had become a tremendous obstacle. Then I decided to follow the example of a fellow blogger who has recovered from severe anorexia and now is on a vegan and gluten free diet. I wasn’t sure where to begin, so I went and bought kombucha, some naked green juice (a huge bottle), salad stuff, coconut water, gluten free crackers and an organic gluten free vegan green chile enchilada meal by Annie. I’ve been into those little frozen dinners for a quick treat when too tired to cook after doing the big job of shopping, bringing the groceries up the steep concrete slab stairs to my little flat and putting them away.

Well. My stomach is doing MUCH better after five days of going dairy free. My appetite is improving, my energy level is improving. I have done yoga three times during those five days and yesterday was able to stand on my head for the first time in ten years! And this is with a failed neck surgery at C6-7 – or maybe I have a new disk by now. Anything is possible. If I don’t yet, with my stem cell regeneration quantum healing visualization meditations, I am going to grow new disks, mark my words. And some day have an MRI to prove that this indeed did happen. I didn’t think I would ever ever stand on my head again. And I held the pose for at least 30 seconds. My 16 year old homeschooling grandson was practicing with me. We both became quite excited!

And then later on I gave an hour and a half hot stone massage. And my client will be back in two weeks. She left euphoric, and that is definitely the goal.

I have also begun to turn my wi-fi off at night and make sure my phone is either off or on airplane mode. no EMFs bombarding me while I sleep. And I have been sleeping much better. Other than the hot flashes. Which won’t last forever.

I won’t even mention any details about the upcoming shadow election other than the fact that most people are in a frenzied state of emotion can hit an empath like me like a ton of bricks. So today I am grounding and starting slowly, still have some healing to do. And the sun is shining, the recently full moon in Aries is now waning in Taurus and energies are smoothing out.

This woman is very thankful to be healing so well. And will listen to my body, be oh so gentle with it when it asks me to – and push it further when it’s willing and able – and finding the balance between the two is key.

Oh, and I have been following the Water Protectors at Sacred Stone camp in North Dakota. The Standing Rock Sioux are amazing – as is the fact that over 250 tribes have sent people to stand in solidarity – people from all over the world are gathering!!!!! I watched a water blessing ceremony – offering blessed water to the police – after smudging them – they seemed so afraid – but I could tell that deep in their hearts they were saying, “At last! AT LAST!”

For our open hearts and minds are the rainbow bridge connecting heaven and earth – and this beautiful nonviolent revolution – it is spreading – everywhere. And it begins within each and every one of us. And if spam is seen declaring the Water Protectors to be violent, know that those are plants – actors – and cannot and will not deter from the sacred power of prayer, the power of unconditional love, of sacrifice for the planet, for water, for our future generations. For this time, the people will prevail. The world is watching and GAIA has all of us in her arms. And we are healing.

I’m going to go through my winter clothes and see what I can send to the people who are staying through the winter there. For it gets very very cold there! I am loving watching the livestreams on FB, it is almost like being there. Oh, and FB keeps trying to block and censor these videos and posts. Or at least partially do so. But we are keeping them coming. We are the new media. I haven’t had regular television for a couple years, but even then it was for my son so he could watch football. I rarely paid attention to it. Haven’t much since way back in 2000 other than some series on Netflix, but at least that way there aren’t any commercials. Save us from the commercials! Forgive me for rambling, so much is going on in the world right now. I do read about it all even though I don’t watch t.v. I do pray for the people in Haiti. I pray for the people in Syria. I pray for the people in America. I pray for all the people in the world, especially those who are hungry, homeless, oppressed, or living in war torn communities. I believe in the power of the people.

Praying for peace. Resting a bit extra. Drinking lots of water and coconut water too. Choosing life over death – and getting stronger every day! Also have less pain than in over a year! That’s fantastic as well. At one point in time didn’t think giving massages part time would ever be an option again. So glad that wasn’t true!

My cats have become my sentries. They have decided that it’s their job to guard me whenever I am resting. My mama cat Mila, who is nine years old, has to be on my lap whenever I am sitting. They are great guardians. Feeling very blessed. Just missing cheese. Instead of butter I am using coconut oil or olive oil and that’s working great. But haven’t gotten over missing cheese yet.





Kaypacha’s Pele Report, October 13, 2016

Kaypacha’s Pele Report, October 13, 2016


Well, during this extremely intense time as we journey towards Samhain, the night when the veil is thinnest, Tom (Kaypacha) talks at us from under a lovely bamboo tree. The Moon has occulted Neptune in Pisces, tomorrow She moves into Aries, where she will square Mars, then Pluto, then She reaches Her full glory conjunct Uranus and Eres, in direct opposition to the Sun.

The Sun is squaring Pluto, and Mercury will come into a square with Pluto as Mercury squares Mars and is conjunct Pluto.

All of these alignments are bringing about the force of change and evolution. Everything is feeling very tight right now and will continue to until next Wednesday, when we will finally feel some relief. It’s like we’re in a pressure cooker.

This is also the time of the Great Attractor, which is at 14 degrees and 2 inches Sagittarius. And on 10/28 Saturn finally goes direct after being retrograde since January 31. The Sun and Mercury will be conjunct and sandwich Black Moon Lilith in Scorpio right around the time of the election, bringing so much shadow work. This is a shadow election, basically a joke. This shadow work has to do with projection and getting in touch with those fragmented , forgotten, unacceptable, buried, shameful parts of ourselves.

Kaypacha interjects at this point (and I am not transcribing verbatim, don’t have my transcription machine anymore, but do my best to summarize for myself and all who wish to read and watch an amazing astrologer) and lets us know we each can be our own astrologers and would be the best for ourselves. If we go to  astro.com we can get our charts done and then we can learn what house the planets are currently in, which will tell us how these cosmic energies are affecting each of us personality. It’s such a helpful tool, he wants everyone on Earth to learn astrology to help us get through these intense transformational times (without exploding).

The Great Attractor is near the Black Hole at the center of Sagittarius, drawing billions of stars into the hole. What’s going on right now with it brings the energies of inevitability, fate, a feeling of helplessness, hopelessness, that of having no control, being thrown down the river. And with Uranus, the planet of transformation and electricity conjunct Eres, the Goddess of Discord we are seeing an expansion of consciousness. So we can grasp greater and greater meaning, understand our purposes, have broader circles of understanding.

When you feel sucked into everything, when you feel lost, when you lose focus, feel fear, it’s jolting and it wakes you up, wakes us all up!

For this is the time of the Great Awakening, and this upcoming year the Year of the End of Illusion. Jupiter in Libra will be opposing Uranus most of 2017. The snooze button is sounding, time to wake up, folks! We will be exploring our fears and desires, old patterns and programming, finding out what’s driving our bodies, our unconscious ego and our motives.


Saturn, the Lord of Karma, represents maturity, helping us to become aware of our own unique structure, future and goals. This is the time to focus on goals which are for the good of humanity, not just for personal needs. That’s one reason nonprofits are on the rise. Because it’s time to co-create, otherwise we’re screwed.

As for the election which is stirring up so much global anxiety and pressure, the shadow aspect here brings up those personal negative feelings and insecurities. We want to dress up and look good but we have our secrets we talk to no one about. But with this election, it’s well known that many many secrets are going on, along with many lies which are being spread and disguised as truth, as if none of us have minds at all. It’s rather mind boggling. So many oxymorons. I just have to laugh.

Saturn in Sagittarius says it is time to grow up. This is evolving time. We have to unite our mask with our inner self and master our identity, open up ourselves as channels. Other global events influenced by this aspect include finances, retirement and world collapse.

Despite all that, we must remain centered in light and soar – be here now.

Next week Mars conjunct Pluto which has to do with ambition, power, drive. And Uranus in Aries has to do with revolution, and it has already begun. May it remain peaceful! This also has to do with us using our righteous anger and deeper guts to tell people to get out of our faces when necessary, for we are being tested.

It’s important not to be afraid during these intense times. Be more intense! Find your intensity because we gotta wake up, take control and try not to overdo it, bot be an angry volcano. This Jupiter and Sun in Libra thing has to do with not putting up with too much or passing out too much. It’s all about balance. Momentous change. People power!!!! Personal power!!!! We are opening and blossoming like lotus flowers!

This week’s mantra: Behind the face I show the world, there is another me. The more these two unite as one, the more I’m truly free.

It takes a lot of energy to suppress secrets, so becoming honest and transparent is very liberating.

Kaypacha’s farewell: Namaste. Aloha. So. Much. Love.

Kamea’s farewell: Rainbow Blessings of Love and Light. A’ho Mitakuye Oyasin. We are all connected.

Update From Alyssa

Update From Alyssa

I just talked to my sweet daughter, and she is very happy that I wish to share her letter with the world, for she has grown so much and is going through tremendous transformation at this time. And she wants her family to know she is so sorry about her relapse. And that the money spent in sending her to Vista Taos last year for a month and the year before for a month was not spent in vain! She did learn tremendous coping skills but needed longer treatment so she could work on her issues from the inside out and have a solid structure for living her life before she gets back out here with all the rest of us. I love her so much! Her letter made me cry. Many times. Blessings of love to you all.

Dearest Mama,

I’m grateful for the letter and pics you sent. Reminds me I have a life outside this fence. Right now I pretend this is my home and these are my sisters so I don’t go crazy, or maybe that means I am going crazy already – lol!  I’m doing good though, I have lost 5 lb. I can tell it’s all from my midsection – no love handles – flat tummy. My arms are getting stronger too – I can do workouts that used to be much harder more easily now. But honestly I kinda miss the little extra weight. I’ll be able to get some back when I can finally eat commissary. I’ll be able to eat by Halloween – my birthday! (Her birthday is El Dia de los Muertos – November 2 – and she will be 27).

First I have to march out. Marching out is basically learning all the movements and drills of ceremony for marching. It’s harder than it sounds. We have to memorize a page and a half verbatim first – which I already did. Next I have to act as Platoon Leader and lead the platoon in marching. I’m getting the hang of it all, though. (In fact, she won an award for her marching already!) When I said I was gonna come here and kick some butt so I could go home, I was not playin’.

So I’ll be writing more since I’ll be getting pens and paper of my own tomorrow. I’ve been out for over a month. I got a certificate from my baptism. It came with a little bookmark that says what the preacher said as I emerged from the water. It’s supposed to be God speaking. It’s pretty cool. Anyhoo, it’s already been a blessing for me and I figure I should pass it on to you. 🙂 I know you’ll take good care of it! 🙂

I’ve been trying my best to create new waves of thought. Most of what we think is recycled from yesterdaty. In The Way of the Spiritual Warrior there’s this really profound quote: “There is no need to search, achievement leads to nowhere. It makes no difference at all so just be happy now! Love is the only reality for the world, because it is all One, you see. And the only laws are paradox, humor and change. There is no problem, never was and never will be. Release your struggle, let go of your mind, throw away your concerns, and relax into the world. No need to resist life, just do your best. Open your eyes and see that you are far more than you imagine. You are the world, you are the universe, you are yourself and everyone else, too! It’s all the marvelous Prayer of God. Wake up, regain your humor. Don’t worry, you are already free! ”

Every moment is a choice. When I get sad or lonely I choose to remind myself of all the good things I still have left in my life. I have so much to be thankful for!  The two things that make me sad are how much I miss you and the family, and Brian’s broken promises and empty words! I don’t think he’ll ever comprehend what constitutes a loving partner. He would have to go waaay above and beyond for me to even consider getting back with him and even then I would still have my reservations about “us.” “US?” If there ever was an “us.” I kinda feel like his head’s so far up his own ass that he doesn’t know how to treat people. Maybe he will remove his head from there someday. Hopefully soon, cuz the lack of oxygen up there obviously isn’t doing his brain any justice. LOL!

I’m thankful for my sense of humor, any humor really. I’m usually a very cheerful person about 95% of the time. Other things I’m thankful for – inside and out there: My beautiful, amazing, unique family, this experience, my (and your) good genes, new friends, new dreams, new outlook, new values, new priorities, new insight, new attitude, change, transformation, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, laughter, taste buds, sleep, exercise, cool clothes, great taste in music, stars – just to name a few . . .

I can’t wait to see you! Anytime I think about seeing any of y’all I get choked up.

xoxoxo Love, Alyssa Micaela Sunshine Varela

P.S. Will you update me on what’s happening in the world? I’ve got no way of knowing.