Paradoxes

Paradoxes

To be here
and not here,
parallel universes
obvious and apparent,
for things have
gotten strange.

Yet we are still here,
and despite the strangeness
and obvious brutality
of the dying patriarchal paradigm,
we are birthing ourselves
into a new world,
for we are the children of the sun,
And no task is too mighty
for us to accomplish United.

This is why they seek to divide us,
by shade of skin,
the ways we pray,
the ways we vote,
how much money we make,
how able bodied we are,
our choice of gender and sexual identity.

So we rise up everywhere
for our freedoms,
which are naturally inherent,
as are our rights
to clean air, clean water,
unadulterated food.
And the right to not be
brutalized because of skin color
or religion,
or living in a country
filled with oil,
we rise up and demand peace!

They will try to keep us distracted
by scandal after scandal,
all while attacking the planet and
her people with a whole new
flavor of ferocity,
for they are so afraid of the
progress we have made,
they would have it all undone,
for the sake of white supremacy
the hierarchical man
with the plan
of destruction.

We are at war
yet we are also at peace,
people everywhere choosing
this path, praying, meditating,
finding we are so much
more than we ever dreamed,
and United we can make a change,
we can save this world,
but first we have to learn
to live with each other.

This is the golden key which
opens the door to the New Age.
The journey is still long and hard,
yet we are closer than ever before.
So keep shining, hold onto
and Love one another,
for it is Love that sets us free.
So things are crazy and miraculous
at the same time.
The old world is dying,
the new is being born.
Mad folk run war machines,
while magic folk embrace
shamanism, serenity, transformation.

We rise up together for every cause.
People marching in the streets,
people bringing peace,
choosing peace,
people brave enough
to bring new life
into this topsy turvy world,
we are the children of the sun.
We are the Golden ones.

Namaste.

© Kamea Moonmaiden

Kaypacha’s Astrology for the Soul, April 26, 2017


This week’s Pele Report fell directly on the New Moon in Taurus, which is all about being in the body, listening to the body, honoring our senses, honoring Gaia, our mother, for we are intrinsically interconnected. Tom takes us through a beautiful bit of jungle as he talks at us, which is such an excellent locale for his style of sharing astrological wisdom with the world.

Mercury still has one more week retrograde, and conjunct Uranus and also opposite Eres, the goddess of discord, which he passed by back on March 29 and then made a U-turn and decided to hang out with her again. Eres only passes by every 526 years, so she moves quite slowly. Jupiter is opposing this Eres energy at this moment, while Saturn conjunct the galactic center is square. Because apparently we needed more discord. Which basically amounts to more of us waking up.

Today, Thursday, the Moon moves on into Gemini, Saturday into Cancer, and then Monday it will be Leo. Luckily, Venus will move back out of Pisces Friday which will help her lighten up as she goes direct and back into Aries, pulling her away from that square with Saturn. We will be able to see her in the morning sky now, and she will help energize all of us, in particular with relationships, personal and inter-personal. This has to do with dark feminine forces arising and rectifying the overwhelming and dying patriarchal paradigm with all its corruption, greed, and war.

We are each feeling this individually, while we are all feeling this collectively. New Moon in Taurus is rather heavy, a feeling which will emanate through the rest of this month.

Uranus coming around to Eres with Jupiter opposite brings us self knowledge, self revelation and all sorts of change and lots of examination of our relationships. Eres comes out of the void and gives birth to strife, toil, forgetfulness, starvation, pain, battle, murder, manslaughter, quarrel, lies, dispute, lawlessness, ruin and her youngest child is oath, which can be the most damaging of all of Eres’ damaging children if anyone takes a false oath. We must stand up for truth and against lawlessness and for strength and healing, unity and harmony and not discord.

Discord at any level brings up lack of trust, hidden lies, and with break downs in trust and each of us looking after ourselves we will ask for proof of things. And during this time of “alternative facts” we are living in doubting times. Yet all that was hidden will be revealed. We are getting to the root of these issues, exposing reality and getting to the end of lies and the end of deception. This is not always a pretty picture! It can take some confrontation, some irritation to uncover the layers of denial.

Kaypacha gives us this week’s mantra from a “we” perspective instead of an “i” perspective because it’s truly time for us to get together and talk about solutions, with and through each other as mirrors of our unconscious. We get in touch with our shadow through the other. The foundation of peace and harmony is truth, so each of us need to stand in our truth and share this with others, because without this there can’t be any peace.

Mantra: There is a light at the end of the tunnel.
It’s there for all to see,
calling us all together
from discord into harmony.

Kaypacha’s farewell: Namaste. Aloha. Take it easy, don’t forget to breathe.

Kamea’s farewell: Rainbow Blessings of Love and Light. A’ho Mitakuye Oyasin.

Retrograde Season

Retrograde Season

One year later and still here. Little Loralai was the bright point in our family Easter, a day with many happy moments but also some family conflict. So bright and sweet and innocent, her imagination still pure. She is such a blessing in our lives. This will work itself out, but my prayers are for healing for my grown kids, each of whom is so amazing, some growing through some terrific challenges, yet still keeping on as we all must do in these strange and transformational times. My yogi son and I went and prayed in a small Sacred Sanctuary chapel. Very peaceful and uplifting.

Just realized I am, right now, two days younger than my dear Mama was when she passed, exactly three months before she turned 55. And two weeks ago, while baking a potato in an oven recently cleaned with oven cleaner which I apparently hadn’t rinsed off well enough, my entire apartment filled with smoke and fumes, making me quite ill. Two days later, at follow up with primary care practitioner, they took blood from me which was returned with several serious looking abnormalities. The nurse called to tell me about them and told me if I needed anything, to just let them know.

The what I thought was very mild poisoning, despite how ill it made me, it clouded up my mind and I forgot to mention the incident to my PCP. Huge oversight.

After doing some research and realizing there could have been carbon monoxide in that smoke, which can cause a rise in carboxyhemoglobin, and after apparently hematocrit, red blood cells, and even calcium. After putting two and two together, I let my nurse know, and she had me go to the ER and get my blood drawn again.

The respiratory therapist who came to draw my arterial blood had severely shaking hands, a physical attribute I figured kinda strange considering her occupation. She jabbed me like five times to find artery, causing quite a lot of discomfort. For some reason, I didn’t even say anything, and she called me a trooper when she left.

So apparently my cholesterol is also elevated, even though I am not at all overweight, eat lots of salad, fish and other health foods. It can become elevated in the fifties due to heredity, so more work on quantum healing at the cellular, basic DNA level is needed. The blood work returned normal! So the fresh air and drinking lots of water worked!

So this Mercury retrograde season corresponding with Venus, Chiron, Saturn, and Jupiter has me doing lots of introspection. And having some time to devote to that. After spending my whole entire life on caring for others, still learning to care for self, and it can be a perplexing and challenging job, to say the least. Have to be my own loving yet firm parent, setting limits for myself, receiving wise and insightful wisdom from my yogi son and also my sweet daughter whom is still in the stone castle, but there are meadows and a river and trees, and she keeps getting promoted and is staying strong and now working in an office with the “Ma’ams” and “Sirs.” She will be finished in just three more months, my upcoming fortuitous birthday, a day where I will celebrate still being alive, and having victorious overcome repeating the same exact pattern of my Mama. We were so close we called each other psychic twins. We finished each other’s sentences. And talked on the phone every night.

Instead of isolating myself by living in a different city than my offspring, I have stayed in the same city for the last twenty three years. And I do have a bit of red wine now and then, usually one glass.

My recent visit to California is still on my mind and filling my heart with love, and next month my baby graduates from high school! I am so proud of him many heart almost bursts. We are very different in so many ways, but in other ways the exact same.

Looking back on memories, seeing how much has happened and how much we all have changed in the past year, is especially sweet today, feeling ever more grateful to be alive. And with good prana, breathing in that pink and gold energy, and breathing out that black smoke. The Christ is flame is nondenominational, so it doesn’t matter what faith or no faith you are. We are all being ushered into a time of Christ Consciousness. How appropriate for the planets to show us the way into ourselves. The theme of resurrection is found throughout history, and is what each of us goes through after the dark night of the soul.

A new and very kind friend has started a Saturday evening meditation for love and peace, sending a lot of this especially to world leaders, that’s 7:00 CST if you care to join. We must focus a lot on standing up for the light during these tumultuous times. That’s all that I will say about that, other than that I have been reading way too much news. And am now restricting the amount I digest daily, because as an empath, I feel certain current events quite viscerally, as I am sure so many of us do, for we are all becoming more and more empathic, which is a touch deeper than being empathetic. We are all amazing. Pray or send positive energy the most to those who seem to be the opposite of Love, for those people are the ones most afraid of all and are calling out for Love.

Many blessings of the stars and moon and wind and rain, rainbows, sunshine, butterflies, Easter eggs, and all of creation to you. Namaste.

A’ho Mitakuye Oyasin.

The Ending of Duality

The Ending of Duality

The ending of duality

is a now we shall all see,
for this longer now of nows
is just a small part of eternity.

A state of always was
and is and
forever ever shall be,

sometimes gasping for air,
sometimes floating seamlessly.

We’re closer now to wholeness,
than we ever been have we,
with more awakening daily
to love and truth and kindness,

for separate not are we,
no, we
are one big giant
family.

© Kamea Moonmaiden

Time Stretched Into Eternity


Time Stretched Into Eternity

We sat alone all together,
stripped of family, home and liberty
forgotten by so many,
I think they threw away the key
as Time stretched into Eternity
there at the CCDC.

Cleveland County Detention Center
Cold metal, concrete, cold air.
The night they brought me there,
I prayed to God to let me die.
But the ladies put their arms around me,
brought me tissues for my tears.
These women became my new family,
there at the CCDC.

Bright orange scrub sets
of jail clothes we were given.
Old grey scratchy woolen blankets,
such a place I’d never lived in.
Like cattle we were driven
for the food that we were given
as Time stretched into Eternity
there at the CCDC.

The main source of our misery
was that we’d been stripped
of all we held dear.
So many of us had a need to mother,
so we turned to one another,
We listened to each other’s stories,
so many stories to tell.
It stopped feeling so much like hell,
and as our prayer circle did grow
each of us began to glow
there at the CCDC.

To help ease the cold and misery
I began yoga every day.
It made the ladies laugh with glee
at the ways I would bend and stretch
and soon they asked me to show them the way
and the yoga class grew and grew
and we began to feel brand new
during my 97 days
there at the CCDC.

Twelve long years have passed
by so quickly since that time
and I am doing well,
but I know that there in CCDC
somebody’s mother, daughter, sister
is spending yet another day.
There has got to be another way
for the sisters in a world set apart –
each has a story which can break the heart
as Time is still stretching into Eternity
there at the CCDC.

Oh, the freedom of living in the land of trees after 97 days of living in the underground concrete forest was beyond bliss. My friends took me in and comforted me, gave me shelter, had collected my most precious belongings and sent me love and light while I was locked up, gave me hugs and a joyous reunion concert at our favorite local dive. The last song, dedicated to me, was called “Gotta get my baby out of jail” and one of my best friends twirled me around the dance floor and another dear friend picked me up in his arms afterwards and set me on the standing bar. It was our favorite hippie band and so many friends were there, buying me shots and spanking me playfully. After all that time locked up I decided to go out and drink for a few times to celebrate my freedom, but since I hadn’t smoked pot for 97 days, I didn’t partake at all before pleading into Drug Court since I figured it would be easier to go through the diversion program I was scheduled to plead into within sixty days of my release if I just simply abstained. And I was right. Two years and four months i was in that program, and I was on pins and needles the whole time. First there was all the shame for what I had done – selling pot while living close to a school and being the mother of so many kids – my youngest only ages 8 and 5 – was so irresponsible and made the whole community consider me a dangerous person. I didn’t see myself that way – I was so naive. Didn’t think of helping some friends find herb as a bad or dangerous thing, although I was aware it was illegal, I was raised in the counter culture – and all my parents’ friends smoked pot with them. It was their favorite pastime. It was only when they got drunk that things ever went awry, so I thought it was alcohol that was bad, not pot.

And now, thirteen years later, things are definitely changing, but not in the state I live in. Someday I will write a memoir of those 97 days which is much more detailed than this poem. I am thankful to my poetry teacher for getting me to reach inside and personalize it more.

Oh, and please forgive me. And now my daughter is in prison for her problems with addiction to hard drugs, but at least she is in the treatment plan of the place, and it is minimum security. Please forgive me for revealing this. But one thing I would like to emphasize is that both my daughter and I are good people. I got treatment for my problem, and she is getting treatment for hers. I just wish there was treatment available for those without the proper insurance which didn’t have to be so harsh and punitive. Because I am still recovering from the PTSD of the SWAT team that broke down my front door thirteen years ago. I spent years and years making up for my transgressions. Paid thousands and thousands of dollars, went to hundreds of meetings, classes, court every week, was drug tested every week up to three times a week and never failed.

Oh, and when I first began my blog I was in pain management for all the issues with my spine and fibromyalgia. I am happy to say that two weeks after my ovaries were removed I titrated myself off of that pain medication and I am off of them now!!!!!

I consider 2016 a year of tremendous change and it definitely was a year of purification, just like Kaypacha predicted it would be. Thank you all for following my blog, I love you all so much.

May 2017 bring you all many blessings of love, peace, prosperity and good health.

Om namaha shivaya. Rainbow Blessings of Love and Light.

Kaypacha’s Pele Report for December 21, 2016

Happy Yule here in the Northern Hemisphere, the longest night of the year, Winter Solstice! This is the second day of Yule, I am one day behind. This week Tom is back home in Costa Rica, with bananas blooming in his back yard. The changing of the seasons – powerful time. So many lovely holidays right now – Happy Solstice, Happy Kwanza, Happy Hannukah, Merry Christmas – or just Happy Holidays!!!! I love you all.

Today the Moon is in Libra, so we have a Moon/Jupiter conjunction – adding to the feeling of peace, love and harmony in the air. For people who have planets between 16 and 20 degrees, the upcoming times will be extra powerful, for these are the heavenly bodies being triggered right now.

We have a sextile between Jupiter in Libra and Saturn in Sagittarius, and a trine between Saturn and Uranus in Aries. In addition to that, we have a Saturn/Chiron square which will be affecting us quite personally. AND – Mercury is in retrograde, yet again. Next Wednesday we will have a Sun/Mercury conjunction at 7 degrees of Capricorn.

Venus is in Aquarius and smiling at Mars and Neptune in Pisces, bringing us to a place where we are learning to set our boundaries, make centered choices from our very core. When we tap into Source, we heal that wound of separation, we are somewhat relieved of the amnesia we entered this dimension with – that amnesia of our Oneness with our Creator. This is a very good week to use some spiritual glass cleaner and clean off the mirrors of our souls.

We are the ones we’ve been waiting for, so it’s up to us to take charge and bring Spirit into matter. Time to unite the yin and the yang, the masculine and the feminine, the dark and the light – for we are the link!!!

During these intense times, remember that this too shall pass. It’s good to remind ourselves that we are so much more than what appears to us on the surface. This way we can remain heart centered and let go of fear and let go of the feeling of being overwhelmed. Yes, these times are urgent. But it is not by rushing anywhere that we are going to make any effective changes. It is by standing up for all that matters, that which increases the Love in the Universe, that which sustains life and invites us to a brighter future. It’s very important to know when to say no, and to be consistent with our boundaries, which is one of the essential keys opening the gates to so much healing golden light.

Ascension is an ongoing process- and there will be lots of ebb and flow in this process. Fear and worry bring us back into a state of unconsciousness, which always delays the links between our hearts and souls. We are the rainbow bridge connecting heaven and earth! I am you and you are me – In La’kesh.

This week’s mantra: I refuse to be a martyr,
sacrificed on the altar
of misguided beliefs
that my soul clearly sees
are a recipe for disaster.

Watching Kaypacha is one of the highlights of my week – I watch it twice, in fact. Once while writing notes, and once with my sweetie. This helps us prepare for the energies ahead.

Kaypacha: Namaste. Aloha. So much love. So much power!

Kamea: Rainbow Blessings. Om shanti.