One year later and still here. Little Loralai was the bright point in our family Easter, a day with many happy moments but also some family conflict. So bright and sweet and innocent, her imagination still pure. She is such a blessing in our lives. This will work itself out, but my prayers are for healing for my grown kids, each of whom is so amazing, some growing through some terrific challenges, yet still keeping on as we all must do in these strange and transformational times. My yogi son and I went and prayed in a small Sacred Sanctuary chapel. Very peaceful and uplifting.
Just realized I am, right now, two days younger than my dear Mama was when she passed, exactly three months before she turned 55. And two weeks ago, while baking a potato in an oven recently cleaned with oven cleaner which I apparently hadn’t rinsed off well enough, my entire apartment filled with smoke and fumes, making me quite ill. Two days later, at follow up with primary care practitioner, they took blood from me which was returned with several serious looking abnormalities. The nurse called to tell me about them and told me if I needed anything, to just let them know.
The what I thought was very mild poisoning, despite how ill it made me, it clouded up my mind and I forgot to mention the incident to my PCP. Huge oversight.
After doing some research and realizing there could have been carbon monoxide in that smoke, which can cause a rise in carboxyhemoglobin, and after apparently hematocrit, red blood cells, and even calcium. After putting two and two together, I let my nurse know, and she had me go to the ER and get my blood drawn again.
The respiratory therapist who came to draw my arterial blood had severely shaking hands, a physical attribute I figured kinda strange considering her occupation. She jabbed me like five times to find artery, causing quite a lot of discomfort. For some reason, I didn’t even say anything, and she called me a trooper when she left.
So apparently my cholesterol is also elevated, even though I am not at all overweight, eat lots of salad, fish and other health foods. It can become elevated in the fifties due to heredity, so more work on quantum healing at the cellular, basic DNA level is needed. The blood work returned normal! So the fresh air and drinking lots of water worked!
So this Mercury retrograde season corresponding with Venus, Chiron, Saturn, and Jupiter has me doing lots of introspection. And having some time to devote to that. After spending my whole entire life on caring for others, still learning to care for self, and it can be a perplexing and challenging job, to say the least. Have to be my own loving yet firm parent, setting limits for myself, receiving wise and insightful wisdom from my yogi son and also my sweet daughter whom is still in the stone castle, but there are meadows and a river and trees, and she keeps getting promoted and is staying strong and now working in an office with the “Ma’ams” and “Sirs.” She will be finished in just three more months, my upcoming fortuitous birthday, a day where I will celebrate still being alive, and having victorious overcome repeating the same exact pattern of my Mama. We were so close we called each other psychic twins. We finished each other’s sentences. And talked on the phone every night.
Instead of isolating myself by living in a different city than my offspring, I have stayed in the same city for the last twenty three years. And I do have a bit of red wine now and then, usually one glass.
My recent visit to California is still on my mind and filling my heart with love, and next month my baby graduates from high school! I am so proud of him many heart almost bursts. We are very different in so many ways, but in other ways the exact same.
Looking back on memories, seeing how much has happened and how much we all have changed in the past year, is especially sweet today, feeling ever more grateful to be alive. And with good prana, breathing in that pink and gold energy, and breathing out that black smoke. The Christ is flame is nondenominational, so it doesn’t matter what faith or no faith you are. We are all being ushered into a time of Christ Consciousness. How appropriate for the planets to show us the way into ourselves. The theme of resurrection is found throughout history, and is what each of us goes through after the dark night of the soul.
A new and very kind friend has started a Saturday evening meditation for love and peace, sending a lot of this especially to world leaders, that’s 7:00 CST if you care to join. We must focus a lot on standing up for the light during these tumultuous times. That’s all that I will say about that, other than that I have been reading way too much news. And am now restricting the amount I digest daily, because as an empath, I feel certain current events quite viscerally, as I am sure so many of us do, for we are all becoming more and more empathic, which is a touch deeper than being empathetic. We are all amazing. Pray or send positive energy the most to those who seem to be the opposite of Love, for those people are the ones most afraid of all and are calling out for Love.
Many blessings of the stars and moon and wind and rain, rainbows, sunshine, butterflies, Easter eggs, and all of creation to you. Namaste.
A’ho Mitakuye Oyasin.